2007

For me it was a year if change.
I've grown up a bit and relized who i am even though my parents hate that.
I'm not a scene queen, i'm not a gossip girl, i'm not even the geeky girl.
I'm me...i'm sorta a drama queen but for the most part i'm just adorable high school kid that could pass for a 6th grader.
I live on music and friends. Without either i would die.
This year was also a year of firsts....concerts really for the most part.

But for something i guess more serious i guess i can talk about how i find all those steroptypes previously mentioned silly.

Why try to photoshop yourself to perfection and bleach your hair and make yourself look like a plastic doll all for interent fame. "Scene Queens" try doing something for the world by idk not buying so much makeup thats gonna fill up landfills and use less hairspray. Maybe you all could put on more clothes because some of you are quite trashy looking in some of your pictures.

And Stupid Gossip Girls. Why spend all your time gossiping? can't you find something better then making fun of others or starting rumors. Most of you come looking like good girls and boys but your hearts are filled with anger and all you do is make up stuff about others for self exseptance...

Geeky Kids good job being smart and all. You don't need to rub it in peoples faces though...not all of you do but alotttt do. thats all i have to say about that.

And yeah i guess thats all i have to say...

have a nice day...

Christmas time is here again

And i'm feeling abnormaly greedy and selfish...which sucks...i'm usually really giving this time of year...maybe its due to the fact that all this year its been give give give from me.I really wish that sometimes people would relize the fact that i'm human too and be ignored isn't cool and i'm here for more then just to be the person you take from...i wanna be treated right...i want life to be better and stuff...

Beauty most Deffiently isn't in the eye of the beholder

Beautfully broken between everything you say.
Beauty comes from the outside in but not with you baby.
Hearts hold on for that time your going to break them.
Oh i hold on Hoping that maybe my 5 hours of momentary bliss will wipe out the pain.
Knowing you don't think i exist.
Maybe just one kiss. One second of momentary bliss

Deeper then nothing?

I feel like bursting. I love him. He thinks i'm just another crazy kid.
Maybe I am. I might just be another love struck teenager who breaths air and hopes for love.
Well I'm pretty sure i'm not. I'm deeper then the grand canayon on a dry day. I Will one day fly away from this boring ordianary life i'm stuck with. I don't wanna be famous. I just want to be known. When kids know you for your brothers band or for your younger sisters friends you tend to hate life. I doubt the way lifes going i'll live to be 25. But if i don't i'll be a shame. No one wants to be related to someone who accomplished nothing. Life For Me is living up to what i'm supposed to. There is no being me here. I'm only a barrier in everyones fun. Never does anyone think of who i am just what they want from me. And maybe thats why i can never believe anything they say. I'll never be anything more then the me they make me to be.